Thou greatest enemy is thyself

Shopping and friends
December 23, 2007, 4:58 pm
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Thanks to Cherie I now have added several versatile and classic pieces to my wardrobe =))) Far East Plaza is like the Shinjuku of Japan, ok maybe not but it’s the closest we have. Cherie is a help to boost my confidence in my newfound singlehood. Went back to Foochow recently though and i’ve never felt more unfit in my whole life!!! Went for lao shi’s studiowarming party in Chinatown tho. Great fun. Got a simple keychain in the gift exchange, the packaging said ‘Love you forever’ and I think Bowen recycled the present from some female fan of his LOL~ Gave Sophie her card and present too! Msg written in the toilet =P and she thought i was having a shit XD Yan Ran is such a sweet girl, so shyy but quite strong inside though, wasn’t soo affected after breaking up with her bf, typical Aries, I should learn from her..  Bought a pair of simple heels from U.R.S. sale at Bugis Junction. It was a simple but classy, black braids crossed on top with a one-inch heel. Saw it some months back but it was $30 then, it’s fate that I found this pair at 50% off, in my size too! The only pair remaining as the display set. Stupid cow tried it on though it was too big for her, now I swear it’s slightly bigger @.@!!


December 23, 2007, 4:42 pm
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Watched 881 at the TM GV. The 4 of us, the only living souls in the cinema. Scary. Oh my gosh I Love Royston Tan. His style is so flamboyant and theatrical, candid and poignant. Loved the song and dance, plus the feathery costumes. ARGH!! How I wish I could act in his movies one day, as calafare also nvm =)

Artsy inspiring day
December 21, 2007, 4:36 am
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Woke up at about 11am today cuz I stayed up till 3am last night doing the posters. Quite proud of them actually, though Mr Heng wanted it for dunno what.  

poster 1
(Read the write-ups if you want XD)

poster 2 
(Photo montage that took a ridiculously long time.)

Went to an early X’mas party at Mrs Neo’s house in Yio Chu Kang. It’s a nice place, unfortunately there’s so much space that the art peeps were segregated into their respective batches. Only Beverly, Sandy and Michael came for the Yr1s,  the only Yr2 was me. Perth 5 came +Boon Han, what a pity not Yee May too ='( Practically all the Yr4s were present, Chong Wu made cool glitter masks for them. Yr5s Dong Hao, Yazid and Wee Xuan. Yr6s Wesley Witono they all, and some ancients I’ve never met before. Still feel as out of place and awkward as before, partly because of my exposed bra-strap XD Marc was an ebullient host, accompanied by Clement his best friend. Names, names, names…

On the way home, Yaz and DH were talking abt the dating game and the various.. procedures. Personally I think it’s best to be natural, if you click good, if you don’t nvm. The advice given ‘by guys to guys’ is frankly quite insulting. I think sincerity and a good character is majorly appreciated but the whole package – looks, brains and charm – is an inevitable factor in the whole equation. Somehow, I never get to present the best of me to most acquaintances, in fact it’s a whole different persona when with my close friends. I wonder how to bridge the gap…maybe, it isn’t necessary at all…

 Back home, talked to Jing Yi about the contrast between NeoHeng. I really aspire to be like Mrs Neo. To harbour a dream of being a teacher, and set sail for a tough learning journey abroad despite financial difiiculties. She’s someone who empathizes better with us students and truly act for our own good. Let’s not talk about Mr Heng shall we, I just find him a huge fake, but it’s not as if his words have no value. They are a cautionary example to me.

 Which reminds me, the greatest lesson I’ve learnt in New York is that ‘Nobody’s a loser unless they think they are.’ There’s always a higher mountain to scale so always aspire for great things. And make baby improvements in the mean time. It takes very long to change one’s mindset and behaviour. Bleah.. And the words of wisdom I’ve gleaned today are ‘

Well…start from what u really like and enjoy and gives u a strong sense of satisfaction cus even if u are quite gd at smth but u dun really have passion for it..ultimately u ll regret cus u cant be gd at what u are now forever. There are countless pple out there who cld be way better than u. Yeah thats reality. U might feel that hey i might quite gd at this then when u enter uni u realise u are nothing. but if u reallly like what u are doing then at least not that bad u can go on u won’t mind if ur not the bestcuz ur alrdy trying ur best n making progress. But of cus there ll still be other factors like people factor which u cant control. u might like what u r doing but if u end up in a class or group whom u cant click with..or cant get along well then u might  not enjoy urself either. Haha but thats secondary la, can overcome it eventually.

December 19, 2007, 7:20 pm
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I love you not because of who you are,
but because of who I am when I am with you.

No man or woman is worth your tears,
and the one who is, won’t make you cry.

The worst way to miss someone, is to be
sitting right beside them knowing you can’t have them.

Never frown, even when you are sad,
because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.

Dont waste your time on a man/woman,
who isn’t willing to waste their time on you.

Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to,
doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

Don’t try so hard, the best things come
when you least expect them to.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one,
so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

Dont cry because it is over, smile
because it happened.

All the ingredients are there but..
December 17, 2007, 1:06 am
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Had a date with Minmin at Orchard McCafe just really is a haven to talk, a (relatively) quiet spot amidst the pre-Christmas frenzy. After hearing out her problems, I realised that both of us are lost and stagnant, but due to radically different reasons.

Reflecting on my recent escapism, I really shouldn’t have a problem at all. I’ve got such supportive family, friends and mentors, who are always there to hear the silghtest rant and ramble. I’ve got talent, maybe the only bad thing is there’s one too MANY, until I need to have a piece of everything and end up with nothing.

 I need purpose and direction now. In the form of spiritual cultivation? Hwee and the Saiputta girls have waited 2 years. Now, just when they think I’m ready, things turn again. I’m really confused and unconfident now, and I think it affects the way I carry myself, so people treat me accordingly…

Also, I’m trying to find a job right now and stop living off my parents. Feeling like a complete bum, a FAT one. Problem is, I’ve signed up for the 8-day retreat at Alokarama in Melaka. *SIGH* Plus I can’t find my O level cert!!! WTF!

 Well every cloud has a silver lining, at least my family is an anchor. My father woke me up from a nightmare this morning and assured me I’m not a failure, and that he’ll gladly let me retake A levels if only I rein in my recalcitrant ways immediately. Then we had family lunch at The Peranakan Place and tomorrow we’re watching 881! For $5/ ticket only at Tampines GV! Whee~ Can’t wait…more musical movies for meee!

This blog has the potential..
December 13, 2007, 12:23 am
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to do great things, OR degenerate into self-absorbed ramblings like my previous blogs. Got a busy holiday ahead, but as a start, do a post re: Mr Tickles, then cover my New York trip, and lastly my shopping trips!!

I went shopping..
December 12, 2007, 6:17 pm
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I think my shopping skills are improving by leaps and bounds. The latest example of my ability to sniff out a good deal was at Sixties Inspired Design Studio. There was a 50% off clearance rack of new arrivals (?? oxymoron..) of mainly outers. Got a white cardigan with a collar that drapes into soft folds for $25. The next day I swept up a black bell sleeved jacket $23, cream knit thigh-length jacket (for my next cold country visit – $30 only!) grey wool shorts $30, and a purple vintage skirt $20. Got the member card which entitles me to 15% discount. Then I went on to pre-order this jeans (size 26, I’m fat) that fit me like a glove. It’s rare to find a pair without that irritating gap between the waistband and back, since my waist hip ratio is about 0.75. Plus I have short legs, and that one didn’t have too much excess fabric at the ankles. And I bought another white cardi that broadens my shoulder and narrows my hips VISUALLY. Super. However, I had to forgo that grey flingy bolero and rich violet jacket cuz short of money and their design were inferior especially at the ruffles.

The Bottom Line
Find one of your more ‘together’ friends — ask them for ways you can get organized.

In Detail
Getting organized doesn’t have to be an excruciating chore, and it doesn’t have to take a long time either. Just go and find one of your more ‘together’ friends, offer them a sweet incentive to help you out, and let them show you their tricks and techniques for keeping the chaos of life at bay. They’ll love sharing this part of their life with you, and you’ll find that they have more than a few new ideas that you can integrate into your way of doing things.

Different me
December 11, 2007, 1:52 am
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Friendster Horoscpe for the Day

The Bottom Line
Why choose to assume a negative outcome in an unknown situation? Think positive.

In Detail
Are you afraid of having a certain conversation with someone who holds a lot of power over your life? There’s no knowing for certain how things will go down, but why choose to assume a negative outcome rather than to assume a positive one? They could be critical, but they could also be positive. Think about it. You have to start being more creative in how you approach the unknown. Realize that you can visualize whatever you want. So hope for the best — and expect the best, too!

Thought of Mr Tickles immediately. But then again veered to the conversation to Aunty Lorna and Nancy at the market this morning. Was takling about uni and future career, perhaps it’s good to write a ‘Letter to Myself – to be Opened after 10 Years’ and visualise my dreams and hopes. Gonna do the Eng Wah movie card design too. And read up about graphic. And cook up and impressive resume that reflects my true self, potential and ambition.

Oh by the way, came back at 2am Monday morning, slpet at 4am and woke up at 6pm, 14 HOURS!! I bet no one slept longer than that. Oh and I stayed online till now *yawn* better go airport to see Ling off (: